My Scribbles

ONE LOVE

2009-06-14T02:26:00.004+08:00

I am not so into koreanovelas but sometimes, they have this great songs that goes with them and I go crazy. Here is one track from Spring Waltz (never saw the show) that a guy made me listen to and he was so right when he said I will love it. I don't just love it, I am so head over heels going gaga over it. The music is autoplay so I hope you will enjoy listening to it as well.

ONE LOVE - Acel Bisa

Higher than the sky above you
Clearer than blue
Brighter than the rays of sunshine
Warmer than what you feel
More than all the wonders you see
It's the most wonderful thing

Brighter than the living colors of flowers you see
Sweeter than the touch of water
Flowing from the mountain spring
More than all the wonders you see
It's the most wonderful thing

One love...
I love you so
Love is the beautiful one
I love you so
Love is the beautiful one
All we need is love
Real love

Marvel at the sight of green fields
Amazingly seen
Watch the colors of the rainbow
It's a miracle you see
More than all the wonders can be
But there's more than that

One Love...
I love you so
Love is the beautiful one
I love you so
Love is the beautiful one
All we need is love
Real love

Greater than what you can feel
More than what you ever dreamed
This is better than your everything

One love...
I love you so
Love is the beautiful one(8x)
All we need is love
One love

Love Notes by Joe D' Mango - episodes 1 & 2

2009-02-15T01:59:00.007+08:00

I have always been a fan of Joe D'Mango's Love Notes over at 89.9 Magic back then until he transferred to it's sister station Wave 89.1 at the Fm dial of the radio. Got lucky, I found him on Youtube and if he decides to continue making more episodes, I will probably post them again next time ... for now, let's enjoy the first two love letters (please be sure to turn off my Imeem music located on the mid bottom-left side of this page, for you to be able to enjoy love notes video, thanks!)

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my Christmas day

2008-12-25T23:59:00.003+08:00

Can't help but feel so down today.
Have you ever felt like sinking in the sea of sadness?
The holidays has given me an excuse to feel unloved, to feel unlucky, and to feel insignificant.
I have so much love to give, so much to share but I can't seem to find the right man to give it to and share it with ...
... that man can't seem to find his way to my life.
Just how do you teach your heart to wait?
How do you give hope to the shattered?
What if he appear one day and there is nothing left in my heart but sorrow ... no love ... just a broken heart?
I hope he is out there looking for me.
I hope he is on his way. I hope he is in a hurry.

Because you Believed In Me

2008-07-30T22:22:00.000+08:00

I believe in dreams
Because I made them while I am with you
When our hands are tight together
I know I am going to be strong

If I can keep you beside me
Every storm will meet its ending
There is no reason not to feel free
Because I know you love me

You taught me how to believe
In impossible things that can be real
And that there no river wild
That we can not survive

Truly your eyes showed me the journey of life
I am now blind to see whatever flaw I have
You said it doesn’t matter if it’s right or wrong
Because there is no such thing as imperfection

I believe love has given me all I need to see
All I want to have and all I need to be
And if you think I believe in fairytales,
That is because you believed in me.

Incomparable

2008-07-25T00:03:00.001+08:00

The soft kiss of the wind on my cheeks is nothing
Compared to the shivers that you bring to me
When you look into my eyes

The gentle sound of the morning breeze
Could not even compete when you speak
For it is like a sweet melody to my ears

Perfection is not the warmth of sunrise,
Or, the calmness of the sea.
Instead, it is your innocent smile that greets me.

Beautiful is never what the eyes can see
Or what the world dictates to me
It is you who loves me.

My Reply To The One I Love

2008-05-18T14:23:00.002+08:00

You are lying next to me
But you seem too far away
Am I wrong to have imaginary emotions?
Wondering if you will ever slip away?

You always apologize
For all the things you have done
But could it be fiction
When you tell me that you need me?

But isn’t it so amazing
How could you be somebody else?
And want something else,
When I am not around?

You hold me by the hand
And you have all that I am
You own every piece of my heart
You took the whole of my soul

When will you say you love me?
Perhaps I am still a dream away.
If it’s not yet time for you to love me
It is best to just go away.

I will continue to close my eyes
So I don’t have to see all the love
That I cannot possibly have
When you are with me.

*** this poem is the answer to the poem i wrote on august 29, 2005 entitled "To The One Who Loves Me". Please check the Archives.

Ang Nagmamahal

2008-04-21T17:38:00.001+08:00

Nasilaw ako sa mainit na sinag ng araw
Aba at tanghali na, nakahiga pa ako
Buong gabi pala akong gising
Naka titig lang sa kawalan
Nag iisip, nag tataka, nag tatanong
Tila nakalimutan ko na yata paano mag mahal
Hindi ko na yata alam ang pakiramdam
Ng may nag mamahal
Bigla kong tinanong sa aking sarili,
Paano nga ba ako magmahal?

Bumangon ako at hinanap ang mga lumang liham mo
Binasa ko yun at bigla akong napaluha
Bakit kaya mapag biro ang tadhana?
Mapag linlang ang pag-ibig?
Ngayon minamahal ka pero bukas ay iiwan ka.
Itinigil ko ang katangahan ko,
Pinunasan ko ang pisngi ko.
Isa-isa kong pinunit ang mga papel na nagpapa alala sayo,
Sana’y huli na ang pag iyak kong ito.

Kailan kaya ako ulit magmamahal?
Meron nga akong puso pero wala namang paglalaanan
Masarap nga akong yumakap pero wala namang pag bibigyan.
Para saan pa ang magpa kailanman kung lagi ka namang iiwanan?
Matatapos na naman ang araw na ako ay mag isa.
Sana ay hinahahanap na ako ng taong ako ay iibigin.
At kung sa pagbibigyan ng Diyos, na siya ay magiging akin.
Baka nga sya na ang aking huling mamahalin.

*** my first time to write a poem using my native language. It is a challenge but I love it :)

Rehab

2007-07-04T01:51:00.000+08:00

I cant sleep at night, tossin’ & turning
In my bed, I cant stop thinking
Of da same old story, we used to have
I think its time for me to go to rehab

Crying over things that happened long ago
I wish I’d never have to love you so
But if this things are not bad enough
Well then, I better go to rehab

Feeling miserable about u leaving me
Which was a part of an old story
I cant believe I still wish for your love
Don’t u think its time I to go to rehab?

Rehabilitate my mind, that’s what I need
Give me peace of mind, is my only plead
Maybe when I got out, I will have time for love
But for now, I need to go to rehab.

You Don't Have To

2007-02-27T02:37:00.000+08:00

I don’t need you to love me
Because that means you will have to lie
There’s no need for you to hold my hand
We both know you don’t care that much.

You don’t have to hold me close
In your arms where I don’t belong
Even if I show you how to love
I know you will not give it to me.

I don’t have to wait for the day
When you will realize your mistakes
No more false hope, promises …
You don’t have to say anything.

You don’t have to be here for me now
Then tomorrow leave me again
Never wipe away my tears
And then hurt me once again.

You know I prayed for you
More than a million times
But please …
Don’t ask me to stay beside you
Because I know you will never change.

Questions

2006-08-22T00:41:00.000+08:00

How do you speak without words?
How do you cry without tears?
What is music without melody?
Is it like love without pain?

Why does the leaves,
Waits for the fall to wither?
Why does the sun,
Sometimes doesn't shine?
Why do people in love say,
They can touch the sky?
Then end up with,
A sad good bye.

Why do we sacrifice,
In order to gain?
Why not expect,
When you have all the hopes?
Why is there a struggle in every fight?
And cry yourself to sleep at night.

How do you feel a moment,
When it isn't even yours?
How do you smile,
When your heart is aching?
How do you read the writings on the wall,
When it is all between the lines?
Just, how do you?

Unspoken

2006-06-02T23:45:00.000+08:00

As I try to write what I feel,
My heart still yearns to speak them.
But my lips are stitched,
And no words can be spoken.

I used to be so consciously naïve,
Most of the time, so gullible
Which lead my heart to be fractured,
Tortured and badly broken.

I stumbled and fall,
Have learned to endure pain.
I have challenged even my worst misery,
Still got through it all.

As I try to write what I feel,
I realized that a broken heart is hard to heal.
But I am glad to know,
That I have loved, lost, and will love again.

Come Undone

2006-02-21T02:05:00.000+08:00

So much has been said
Pain overflowed from where I stand
Dreams were left still shattered
Perhaps there is no way to undo everything
We can’t replace sad memories with good ones
And you can’t give hope to the hopeless

If we look into each other’s eyes
You will not see a trace of the past
It was washed away by my tears
Why constantly say promises
When everybody stopped believing
Tell me what is the use
If all colors of the rainbow are the same?

You cannot stop the rain from falling
And the only way out is the door
So, stop catching me whenever I fall
Because I need to be here
It is a lonely place out here
But its lonelier to be with you

Predicament

2006-01-11T01:41:00.000+08:00

Why do I feel this way? There’s still butterflies in my tummy whenever I hear your voice. Your name still makes me smile and sad at the same time. I still want to see your face, touch your hand, and feel your skin. Our past is still my favorite memory and the tears I cried for you is still my loneliest time. How could the person who broke my heart still be the one who can fix it? I fell, picked myself up, and here I am, still waiting for you to break me again. Can you tell me why I still feel this way towards you? Why can’t I let you go? Many times have I tried to look the other way but my heart tries to tricked my mind and I always find myself walking through the path I walked on when I was with you. I hate this feeling. I know you will never come back.

It is I

2005-10-23T00:43:00.000+08:00

I sit across you
staring and trying to memorize the face
your smile never fails to make me fall
back in your arms again

I touch you
as if i have touch the skin of a child
so tenderly trying to feel you
in a caress of desire

I dream of you
like i never want to be awaken again
in a long sweet slumber
and never able to let go

I want you
and i wont even ask for more
just to be beside you
to love you

To The One Who Loves Me

2005-08-29T01:31:00.001+08:00

You’re holding me tight
As if you never want to let go
But somehow, I still feel the space between us
That I just cannot ignore
You said our hearts beat as one
Our souls united
But somehow, I feel that its only your love
that binds us
And there’s nothin’ more
Every day you make me feel wanted,
and needed
But somehow I feel that in another place
In another arm, I am wanted more, needed more
I should be with you
I shouldn’t feel better w/out you
I swear I do love you
But somehow, this heart feels that
I don’t belong to you
I am sorry that I am not in love with you

Wondering Walls

2005-08-01T16:50:00.000+08:00

I wonder what you are doin right now
Are you staring at the wall of your room
Or your tossin and turning in bed, going around?
Did it ever occur to you
That I might be thinking of you
Have you ever thought about me too?

I wonder if you have dark circles around your eyes
Having a hard time sleeping every night
Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Was there ever a time that you cry over a heartache
And just couldnt get over it?

The Perfect Combination

2005-07-22T16:13:00.000+08:00

What makes of a perfect combination?
Is there really such a thing? I sometimes wonder why a couple lasts very long, is it because of compatibility? They said a perfect pair is about complimenting each other, for instance the woman’s weakness should be the man’s strength and vice versa. That is where “dating” comes in. Men and women go out on dates because they simply want to study their options & find out who they think and find very complimenting to their personality. Of course we should enjoy “dating” and make it less stressful. If a person forced himself to another though obviously they don’t gel in, one get disappointed & the other simply moves on. A person can't forced somebody to change just to be able to fill their standards because eventually the true identity will come out. You can only say you are a perfect combination when you accept each other's faults, beliefs, ideas, and make compromise with each others individuality.

Each and Every Day

2005-07-22T16:01:00.000+08:00

how could you hurt me this way?
I suffer almost each & every day
you just think that im ok
deep inside, there’s so much I couldn’t say

they said, im gonna be fine
let him be, he just need time
but how am I gonna tell you
there’s so much im going through?

tell me you hate me
that there’s no way you can love me
tell me I lost your trust
that our love isnt bound to last

let me move on
face me so I could go on
its not fair that uyo’re hurting me this way
coz I die, each & every day